Do you remember the last time you had that “ah-ha” moment? Last week I had a moment of clarity that I had been praying for what felt like months! I mean I could literally feel the lightbulb turn-on in my head.

Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmed with, “how much there is to do”. Between adjusting to life without my dad, adjusting to life with a baby, selling our house, moving homes, living in a construction zone (#renovations), taking care of Ava, working at the hospital, blogging, cleaning, laundry, replying to emails: I WAS JUST NOT ENJOYING ANY OF IT. Not only was I not enjoying anything, but I also didn’t have the energy to do things that I usually enjoy (like going for a walk or out to dinner with Andrew).

As I was praying for some guidance and reading a devotional, something jogged my memory of a conversation that I had back when I was in college. 

Years ago, my Aunt Carol told me, “that you live many lives within life, and you have to be okay with it”. At the time I was only 19, and I thought she was maybe going a bit crazy. These days, I have a completely different perspective and  I think I understand what she was trying to say:

Life is made up of different “seasons”, and success lies in knowing the season of life that you are in. 

And just like that, I got it: I was holding onto things that were not meant for this season. For me this meant, I had been holding on to my career in nursing. Without going into too much detail, for months there have been a million and one signs telling me that I need to take a step back from healthcare.

So why was I having such a hard time letting it go? I mean I learned so much from that job, and I was able to help people! However, my life looks much different now than it did then when I first started nursing. I am in a completely different season of my life now, and I am okay with that. Actually, I am excited about what God is doing in this season! 

I love knowing that I can do something but maybe not in this season of life. We have so many seasons in life and I always want to do everything in the one I’m currently in. While there is definitely something to be said about balance and time management, we are all human and we can not do it all at once (and if we try, we won’t do it all well!) Holding onto to things that were meant for a past season, can take away from the beauty in the current one.

For this season, my number one priority is being a mom. I am also focusing on reaching others through this blog, creating a joyful home, and taking care of my family. So on the days when I feel guilty that I am not nursing, don’t get a full workout in, or I forget to respond to a few text messages, I remind myself that my life won’t look like this forever. (I am sure that a season in the future will have plenty of hospitals and workout classes!;)) This season may look completely different from the next one, and that is okay because that is how God designed it! 

Remember, success lies in knowing what season you are in. So think of the things that need to be done in this specific season. Is there is something that you are trying to hold on to? Or maybe there is something that you are trying to do now, but it might be better to make it a goal for a future season! Whatever it is, I hope that God will give you the strength and wisdom to fully embrace and enjoy the season that you are in. 🙂 

All my love,

Alex